another kind of me

saturday, july 11, 1998, 04:09 i got a whole lot of work done today in the office. i scared myself. the only problem is that i actually have ot have something to present on tuesday. and i don't know when i'm going to get to that. and i have to get up early tomorrow morning to do some work lugging computers around the english department. but i'm still awake. why am i awake? i am awake because of a party. a fun party with a whole lot of cs majors sitting around playing quarters, playing with a digital camera, attempting to play pictionary, and overall having a fabulously good time. it took me a couple of hours into the party to foget about the stress of work. SQL and Access and "Solution" and other buzzwords kept flying into my head when i thought i had cleared myself of them. but finally, after downing a couple of glasses of coke and a huge piece of carvel ice-cream cake (just like i used to have at all my birthday parties except that i never had the little mermaid on my cake as a kid), i virtually forgot all about the immense amount of crap that i have to get done. and as much fun as many of the others seemed to be having getting completely smashed, i was content to sit back and take pictures of them getting completely smashed. i suppose it's just that thing again. that "i want to be completely responsible for everything i do" and that "i want to be able to stand up straight" thing kicking in again. maybe i'm missing out on something. or maybe not. i love the summer. up one | mail | sun | mon | tue