So why is it that when I would rather people just stay away from me, they don't, and when I would rather they didn't, they don't. I think that there's just something wrong with the way I send signals. Or the way I receive them. Or something.What do you do when you're sitting on the couch. And you know that she's sitting right next to you. And you would like nothing more than take your right hand and put it down on the couch between you, and hope, that in some strange cosmic twist of fate, that she too, at the same time, will have this same desire and puts her hand down on top of yours. And you can just sit there. Watching the pulsating ball of electricity dancing to the music. Forgetting about everything else in the world because there's another person there with you.
What do you do if you put your hand down on the couch. And she seems a thousand miles away. What do you do if the fact that you are sitting together doesn't mean that you're sitting together.
What do you do if you know that if you want something done you're going to have to do it yourself. But you don't want that something to be the wrong thing.
What do you do if you can't read the signals. Because there isn't anything to read.
What do you do if there's no way for you to know what to do. Because you've never been in the situation to have to do something like that.
And what do you do if you know that you don't want to fuck things up. But you know you want them to change.
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