Interaction feeds the brain. I've found that these days, the words just aren't flowing to me as easily as they have in the past. I have also found that i've been interacting with fewer and fewer people. Today, my friend mike, the two people at the deli, kathy, my mom, my dad, my sister. I have a feeling that's about all the interaction i had for the day.And because of this, i have fewer experiences. My brain has less to process, has less to think of, has less to deal with. Thoughts can be clear. Concise.
Boring.
I need human interaction. I thought for a while that I could find it on the web. I thought that by visiting enough sites, reading enough journals, "knowing" enough people, that I would be okay. That with these virtual people who were really grounded in reality I would be able to deal with not having the physical human form.
I was wrong.
There is just something missing when reading a person's life on the comptuer. I can find out who they've had sex with. I can find out more than i ever wanted to about their cats. But When you get down to it, all of this means very little if there isn't an actual person there.
That's not to say that there's no place for personal pages. Hell, would i even be writing this is i felt that it had no place? Of course not. But, I think that the web can only be used to suplement real life. Not replace it. I thrive on learning about people.
I love reading personal pages. I love reading all about people. But I also love knowing people. And you can't ever really know a person until you've spent time with them.
Two of my friends, for example. All of their correspondence was through email. Now, while i'm sure that a lot came out in those emails (though the substance there is questionable), the two really started knowing each other when they met in real life.
As much as I can't stand being around people, as much as I have a hard time dealing with them, I need people to survive.
I need people to feed my brain.
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