another kind of me

Think of them as thoughtlets,
but what are they really?

tuesday, april 15, 1997 01:03

Sitting here, writing, thinking about what it is that I am creating here. A very selective part of me. This is indeed another kind of me. This is not the me that you will know if you've grown up with me for 18 years. This is not the me that you will know if you've known me for two. No, this is the me that I want to tell all of you about. This is a special me. One that is the me that I want to shape for all of you. The me that I want to shape for myself.
This is the me that i've always wented to be, but couldn't. This is the me that i've always been, but am seeing just now for the first time.
Of course this isn't going to be everything that's happening to my life as it goes on. There's something to be said for learning about a life in person, as you're living it. There's something to be said for not having to learn my feelings through the cold glass monitor.
This is the me that I've been shaping. This is the me that I've been molding. This is the me that you will only find, buried inside the many other layers that you all already know.
This is another kind of me.