i'm having a breakdownOkay, well, it's not a real breakdown, but it's kinda confusing on the inside. hopefully, if all things go well, i'll be looking back on this in a few years and see that i was worrying for nothing and everything has turned out just the way it was supposed to and everything is happy.
on the other hand, i could be looking back on this and thinking that i should have signed up to be a live psychic while i still had the knack.
I'm considering what the heck i'm going to do with the rest of my life. i think that i've got next week pretty down pat, but getting to next week will be a bit of a problem. Next week is actually pretty easy seeing as school won't have started yet. Just me and some phone wires. Whee.
But after that. What can I do? I suppose I'll go to those classes, but those'll run out quickly enough.
Was talking to my uncle at a gathering of sorts a little while back. We were talking about college and all, and he says to me, rather off handedly, "well, one down." And I agreed with him, until I realized that my cousin is a year behind me in school and that for me, three semesters are done. One more and I'm halfway done. And I feel like I haven't even started yet.
Well, that's not entirely accurate either. I've certainly done enough stuff in my time here. But I really like college. I like the atmosphere. I like my friends here. I like not having to cook for myself. I like not having to worry about things like utility bills. That's all going to change in a few years, and I want to know what's going to come in the time ahead.
So, do I pursue that lucrative career in computers (which I myself am rather skeptical of to begin with), or do I go for that whole theatre. Ideally, there would be a middle ground in there somwhere. Let's hope I can find it.
Be nice to live in a dream.
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