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tuesday, june 8, 1999, 00:23 i was in the shower this morning in princeton, NJ and all of a sudden i was hit with this overwhelming feeling of "wow! i'm happy!" and then i just started smiling. this is a very good thing for me. and i suppose a good thing in general since from what i gather, people in princeton are happy because they're all rich, and i'm currently not employed yet, so i didn't really have a right to be happy. but fuck that, i was happy! and you know why? well, i was with elaine. it was a beautiful day (or was shaping up to be one at least). i was getting clean. i had just bought new pants yesterday (and some silk boxers. mmmmm.) and i had had a good weekend and hung out with some cool people. that's great! that almost never happens. i also hung out with giselda, which was equally cool because she's just cool and we went to a coffee shop in princeton and made fun of how rich and pretentious princeton students are and commented that this little coffee shop was far superior to starbucks because they hired cute boys to work behind the counter. then i drove home, and while it could have sucked, because it's driving in new jersey, it really wasn't too bad. and i got home just fine, and and i went to the library to get some books, and i found out that my interviews have been going pretty well, and even though it was like 700 degrees today, i was still happy. then i made a business card for my dad who needed a card now that he's retired, so i used my mad design skillz to hack him up a quick card in word which looks pretty decent and has one font and no graphics at all. "it's too simple" said my sister. bah. but i'm happy. scared of the future, but happy for the present. and really, that's all that's important. because if i keep looking at the future, i'm going to start dwelling on what might happen. and if that happens, then things will never happen. and if that happens, then i'm never moving out my parents' house. we've got to make sure that doesn't happen.
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