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tuesday, march 16, 1999, 03:24 i am right now quite tired. it seemed so long ago that it was this morning. so long ago that i came to the realization, the true understanding, that in a few short months, i will be packing up my things, leaving my house, and moving somewhere. that i will actually be getting up and going, as an actual action, just hit me like a ton of bricks. and now i'm not so sure i want to leave any more. i feel four again. not wanting to be out on my own. not wanting to be without my mommy. and then i realize that i am on the edge of some wild adventure. and i get even more scared. the wind is blowing something fierce outside. the ground is covered in snowiceslush. and i'm going to curl up in a ball and go to sleep.
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