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saturday, february 27, 1999, 04:07 wow, it's either springtime or something in my pants, or a little of both, because i rearranged my schedule and even skipped a class in order to go to see if i could possibly meet up with a girl without any prior plans to do so. which means that i've completely fallen for her which means that i've put her up on this incredibly high pedestal and which means that i will never act on any of these feeling because the stakes have been raised so high and the risk too great. it means that i am a complete nutball and while i would call her, because while i happen to know her last name just out of the blue ("i don't know, i just knew it"), it would be way too awkward to just giver her a call as "that guy you met last week and spoke to but never made plans with to ever have paths cross again ever in life. there is most definitely something in the air. yesterday dumped a number of inches on us, but, in quite atypical weather fashion for this area, it decided in fact not to rain after the snow and instead got a little sunny. what this amounts to is a bit of slush, but more importantly, a nice, warm, snowy day. warm, where people are walking around, no, wait, not people. let's get more specific. couples. couples are walking around arm in arm, ahnd in hand, being all cute and things like that. which is fine for me, and more power to them, but it just further reinforces my knowledge that i don't have anyone to take walks with, hand in hand. almost killed the buzz for me of the lovely day. but it didn't. no, what killed my buzz was the fact that i saw this girl, this girl into whom i was supposed to run while ice skating and say hello and act all cool and stuff. and i saw her walking towards the rink. and i followed. and i had to wait to finish talking to my friend. and when i got into the rink, there was a large piece of machinery on the ice, no people around, and no girl. that sucked. but it was ok. you know why? right. because it was a beautiful day.
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